Su the Duck

As one of the turning points of my life, Su the Duck pops in to my head lately. What do I remember? Gee... Moments embarrassment for me. I have done much stupid things for this girl. I remember walking around your door every morning on my way to high school hoping that I can get a glance of you. I remember being alert whenever the bus 278 passing by just because that's the bus you ride to school. I remember the excitement when I was invited into your house only later found out that I had a hole in my pants. I remember delivering flowering to the boy you loved for you just because you asked me to. Was I a wuss.... I permanently marked myself as a tragic figure in this relationship that I wished existed. I swore myself to protect you in the dark even though I knew there would be no happy ending for me. Sigh... Was I young and naive.

Well... But was embarrassment all I got. No, far from it. She is the turning point of my life. Whither she know it or not, she helped me to become the person that I am proud to be. Know that Su Duck was a tragic person. Tragic things happens to her like rain in the forest. Sometimes, despite the wuss that I was, she talked to me from time to time. She made me think. She put me into persepectives that I wouldn't be if wasn't for her. Because of her, I became a more sensitive person than I was before. I became a more considerate person than I was before. If it wasn't for her, I could be any jerk that passes your life. For that, I sincerely thank her.

Then... I remember the last conversation that we had. I remember talking to her in side of a little park around the corner. I remember what she told me right before I leave for the US. She told me that whoever be my wife will have a difficult time for the fact that I am the only son. I remember disagreeing with her...

Then, I left. I remember the short days of long emails shooting back and forth everyday years after I move to the US. I remember she admitted that she was only playing with my feeling back in highschool. I remember being extreme mad at her and then forgave her right away. I remember then being the only comfort of her vulnerable time. And... I remember how that turns out. Gee. Was I young and naive.

Then, there's her early marriage, which doesn't effect me much, since I was totally over her by then. I remember her trouble with marriage and life at the time. I remember ditching my good friend "Dumpling Lin" at the ally entrance, just so that I could walk her and talk to her. I remember... I seemed to take comforting her as my responsibility. My way of paying back to her for making me the person I am today.

Then there's her divorce. Then... There's my recently reunion with her. She seems.... happy.

I don't remember when was the last time I see her happy. But there she was........ HAPPY, and stronger too. She was a different person than what I used to know. I guess, like a happy ending to a sad story. There it is. She is finally happy.